reflection.

It's a monday night, I'm sitting here thinking of where I've gone in life. I do have a lot to be thankful for, but I've realized that I am lazy and I am not working at my full potential. I am beyond embarrassed, especially because I'm not where I should be.

It's my second year at BMCC, hopefully my last. I shouldn't have been attending this school for the fall semester, but here I am in the spring semester of 2010. In the Spring semester of 2009, I got lazy and thought I could pass classes without putting forth an effort. Boy, was I wrong. I even blamed my relationship for the reason I had gotten so lazy when in real life, it was no one's fault but my own. I had the option to say no, and put all my focus on school. Instead I made excuses, brought home a B+, a C- and a D+ and I failed my math remedial class.

Sharisse, WHAT THE FUCK WAS ON YOUR MIND?

Smh, after removing myself from that situation with my ex boyfriend, I decided for the fall semester that I'd pack it up, and do better for myself. This semester I brought my GPA up from a 2.31 to a 2.62 receiving all B+'s and passing my math remedial course. I should have gotten A's but I got lazy at the last minute, and I let myself to slip up.

This semester, I'm not feeling anything as far as classes go and I want to drop statistics but I'm gonna give it another shot. I don't wanna give up, but I do wanna put my all into these classes. I'm trying to move up in life and prove to myself that I AM capable of doing ANY and EVERYthing I put my mind to.

I do plan on doing a recap in three months to see how far I've come. I need to do more.

This semester, I had a job move, and I decided to stop hiding my face with my bangs. That brought my confidence up, a little bit. I've learned that people will talk no matter what so don't cater to them, cater to you.